In 2015 I went to Paris, London and Dublin with my sister and BFF Amanda. My dad bought my sister and me our flights for our birthdays; I was turning 30 and my sister 25. I used to get really bad packing anxiety and going somewhere for two weeks in the "winter" (it was March but still boot weather there) freaked me out. How was I going to fit all my boots? All my clothes? I needed an umbrella and a jacket, scarves, gloves etc. So I decided I needed to do some research, I went right to Pinterest and searched "how to pack for Europe."
Happy 34th birthday to me! WOW, I am just not sure about that. It's bittersweet. 33 was a good year for me because even though there were a ton of struggles I think I finally learned myself, who I am, and what I will and won't settle for! I have learned the value of a dollar… sorta! Haha, a little better :) and realized that there is more to life and my purpose, than marriage and children. I am happy where I am.
I met Courtney again after that and she gifted me some of the products. She is such a doll. I used them for a few more weeks and decided I was ready, I wanted to be healthier and more cautious of what I am putting in and on my body. I have lost so many close people to cancer and every little bit of "safer" helps! I told Courtney I was in, sign me up.
If you did not know, I am obsessed with toothbrushes. It's one of my "tell me something people don't know about you" items. I cannot tell you when this obsession took over or why honestly but I believe because teeth are the first thing I notice on a person and my girlfriends can attest to that, we are all on the same page. It is so important to take care of your teeth because poor dental hygiene can lead to other medical issues. Brushing and flossing is so simple to prevent teeth conditions or more.
Helloooo!! So, today is the 3 year anniversary of Style My Mind. I have to be honest, there was a point in December when I thought I may quit and shut it all down because I had no idea where I wanted to go with my blog. Instead, I sat back and remembered my "why". Why was the reason I started my blog? Because I love writing, I love fashion and I love sharing my life experiences to help motivate others. That is when "Faith in Fear" started. We always share the happy stories but sometimes we need to be vulnerable enough to share the truth.
Well, well another year has come and gone for my baby blog and as per usual, I have learned a ton. Firstly, we aren't really "bloggers" anymore are we? Or are we "influencers"? I am just not sure so I'll be both. Also, has the IG algorithm gotten straightened out yet? No? Ok, let's shoot for year 4.
2019 has not started out the way I hoped. I am having trouble holding onto my faith right now and I am mad at myself for it. I do believe as a Christian, there are times we struggle to understand especially us with anxiety and an urge to control everything. Death is one of those things we have zero control over.
"She is clothed in strength and dignity, and laughs without fear of the future." -Prov 31:25 After mending my broken heart for 8 months, I started to find myself again. There were some really dark days of endless tears, curled up on the bathroom floor in fetal position sobbing my hydration away. I distanced myself from people who brought out the worst in me and filled my days with hot tea and cardio. Work started to get better as I devoted a lot more time into advancing my knowledge on our system and processes.
Fast forward to 2018, I moved to Tampa in June 2014 from Jacksonville to be closer to my family. I moved around a lot, like moving into my 6th apartment this year. Haha. What can I say, I like change? Anyway, the last 4 years of "relationships" if you can call them that have been a struggle but it was in those times that I really learned a lot about myself and what I really want and what I am not willing to settle for.
Happy Monday friends; here we are on week 4 of my series, Faith in Fear. I really hope you have been enjoying it. I want to be sure you know that the reason I wrote this series is to show you that God is always there even in the tough times. Life isn't all butterflies and rainbows all the time. We can hide behind social media all we want, but this is the real deal. These are situations that really happened and in the end it all worked out despite my worry and lack of fear.